I'm not upset, just impolite

I have been so frustrated lately over my recruiter giving me the run around but I have though and prayed about it and I honestly think that something good will happen today. I'm going to blog this then eat my lunch then go ahead and call my recruiter to see if she has any news and apologize for being so persistent. I don't think I'll stop calling every day because honestly this is something that I want very badly and although things are okay between my mother and I right now it is literally a matter of time before we get into a fight where she demands that I leave the house and I have to go on a run until my dad gets home to calm her down. 

I just want to start my life again. I feel like I've been on pause for the past 4 months and although I've been working myself hard etc. I feel like I've been doing nothing with my life for so long. It really is hard to sit here and wait it out but I'll take AirmanMom's advice *thanks :]* and just relax and pray about it. 

Hopefully I'll have a more informative blog when I get done with my call.

I keep listening to this song so I feel like I should share it.. its actually a sad song but it's just such a good song